Trans Rage
By Remy Lourenco
Trigger warning: This poem, which is posted here to honor Transgender Day of Remembrance, includes description of sexual assault and anti-transgender violence.
they call me crazy when I enter the men’s room—
that man
bellowing at the top of his lungs
the hero of the gendered world
marching with his army of
blue and pink swaddles
brandishing his sword of tongues—
but he—
he is only a foot soldier.
former republican executive
Todd Kincannon
said that
there are people who respect
transgender rights
and people who think
we should all be put in a camp
and that he is of the latter
party
and sometimes I cannot breathe
when I think about the Todd Kincannons
who write the law in blood
and vomit hatred
who spit on
human fucking beings
tell me
what is it?
what is it that you are protecting
so dearly
what is it
about my very
existence
that ignites a hatred in you
akin to Adolf Hitler
because the man in the bathroom
didn’t decide one morning
to begin to hate me
it wasn’t until you
beat him senseless
with the word “faggot”
and he turned around
and shot
Victoria Carmen White
ten miles away from my house
you gave him the key to my city
to call me
a faggot dyke
in a public restroom,
he doesn’t even know exactly what these words mean
he only knows that they hurt
and he wants me to hurt
the same way he wanted
Brandon Teena
to hurt
when he raped him
and shot him
point blank
I bet he noticed
we have the same haircut
and he’ll find out
when our blood is pooled on the ground
that it’s the same color
and the Todd Kincannons
can dip their quills in that blood
and sign the lease to concentration camps
to the asylum
the support group
to the ten commandments of gender roles
you don’t get to tell me who I am
you don’t get to decide what my body does and doesn’t do
and if they want to know why I’m so fucking angry
well here it is